Be my therapist or empath

Created By  White ghost on Thu Mar 30 2023 16:06:07 GMT+0000 (Coordinated Universal Time)

Friends, 
Have you ever felt like death is better than living? 
I don't want to kill myself but i sometimes hope  that something/someone will kill me. 
Life is not worth living.. I'm all aware about the fact that how priceless life is but still you get that state of mind sometimes where you don't feel anything, indifferent to everything, numb to every feeling. 
I don't want this feeling tbh
I don't value my life that much but i don't want to recklessly loose it by killing myself. 
If you have any advice I'm all ears.